You are the reason why overthinking has become my drug!

I don’t know of a single girl who hasn’t gone through this. And that just makes me sad. I mean, even the Prime Minister of a random country must take out some time to text back a girl who’s been giving him all the right signals (at least she thinks she is)! What are you even so busy doing?

Training for the Olympics?

Rescuing polar bears from the South Pole?

Fighting against hunger in a third world village?

Being James Bond II?

I think more than not receiving a text back, not knowing the reason behind it irks me the most. You should just start using pigeon service if you still haven’t wrapped your mind around the technological advancements of texting back and forth.

I’ve almost lost any hopes I had before and that’s saying something, because I’m not someone who gives up on people that easily. You checked almost all boxes in my mental checklist but I think being a slow texter is going to be the end of any fantasies concerning you.

You can either be completely in or completely out; leaving me hanging in the middle of nowhere is so not cool.

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Most of my friends are of the opinion that you aren’t interested in talking to me or you’re just super busy. And mind you, I defend you fiercely. I make up every possible excuse to refute their arguments. But I don’t believe them to be excuses when they are, in fact, well analysed hypothetically valid reasons.

And we can’t simply ignore the fact that we had an amazing start to this acquaintance (courtesy: Tinder) which was followed by an almost perfect meet up/ date. I don’t think I have ever gelled with a stranger that well. And the fact that you were blabbering away for most part of the night, kind of suggests that you enjoyed it too. We exchanged numbers and that’s when things started going downhill.

It began with late replies which transformed to seemingly uninterested ones. But the promise of a second date still hung in the air.  And that’s what created this little monster of overthinking in my brain.

Yes, you flirted but you still seemed distant.

Yes, you asked me out a second time but were too busy to execute it.

Yes, you still wanted to talk to me but not as frequently as before.

Yes, it’s possible that you’re just busy but why deny it on asking?

If it’s just the attention you like, I’m sorry but you need a new personality and a new Tinder date.

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I mean, whatever your reasons are, just get them out in the open for Pete’s sake! You can either be completely in or completely out; leaving me hanging in the middle of nowhere is so not cool.

So, if you’re generally not interested in me, just stop texting! There’s absolutely no reason for you to get jealous of my other Tinder matches. You have no right to prevent me from going on a date with them when you go from Hot to Cold in a second.

I can’t and I’m not going to wait for you forever boy; so you better hurry up. And if it’s just the attention you like, I’m sorry but you need a new personality and a new Tinder date. Playing with people’s thoughts and emotions and then watching them squirm isn’t a legitimate hobby; so please stop, would you?

But then again, after all the overthinking, (because, why not?) something still makes me wait for your texts every day (my friends call it stupidity at its best). But I can’t help it, okay? It’s addicting. My eyes actually light up at the sight of a new notification on my phone! Yes, it’s that pathetic.

So, please just disappear forever or hurry up on that second date, okay? You’ve two options or nothing because I need my sanity back and fast.

Running out of patience,
Someone who has had enough of the mixed signals.



Author:  Alisha Jamshed Syed

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