You loved me once, so here I am, begging you to love me again.

I know you hate me but please read till the end.

It’s general knowledge, that I am a creature of many mistakes. And the very first that I made with you, was in the context of the well-known ‘fear of rejection’. Being commitment phobic is a lot easier than one might think. It’s always convenient to cut all ties and start afresh, isn’t it? I won’t sugar-coat the facts. That’s exactly what I did to you. And just so you know, it has gone under the list of the biggest mistakes I’ve ever made.

By the way, by starting off the letter this way, I have no intention of playing the role of the typical boy, who surpasses creepy limits to get back with his ex-girlfriend. No ma’am. Sure, this is a love confession of some sort, but believe me when I tell you, that I want you back only if you truly wish to make me yours again.

I know you deserve better, but I’m willing to be better than the best if you can find love in me again.

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I’m writing this letter to tell you that, you were the very first girl whose mere smile forced me to make some sense out of sappy love stories. You might not believe it, but I was slowly falling in love with you the first time you fell asleep on my shoulder on one of our dates. You were drooling and snoring on the backseat of the cab; but surprisingly, I didn’t want that moment to end! That was the very first time I realised, that I was falling for you; someone I had just been casually dating for a short time. Someone, I hadn’t intended to fall for.

I hope if not then, at least now, you understand, that I was just coming to terms with being in love. But what happened next? You confessed your feelings to me on the very next date! You wanted a serious relationship and I completely freaked out! I broke up with you. No, I broke your heart. I shouldn’t have; and I’m a million times more sorry than I should be. I was a coward. I shouldn’t be asking for a second chance. I know you deserve better, but I’m willing to be better than the best if you can find love in me again.

Will you teach me how to value love, so that I won’t have to write cheesy letters again?

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Like I said, I made a mistake and now I’m paying the price. I don’t know how true these words must be sounding to you right now, but they most definitely aren’t false promises. You know, I’ve never been much of a ‘romantic gestures’ kind of guy; I couldn’t even tell you that I loved you back! But a love letter in beautiful stationery should count, right?

You’re fully aware that I was never one to believe in love, let alone value it. But here I am, writing pages full of corny things like ‘worth the wait’ and ‘one and only’. Now you can’t complain that I’m not at all romantic! But why am I doing this? To get you to like me? So that you call me back (maybe)? It’s to relieve myself of the giant box of feelings for you, sweetheart (mixed with *coughs* commitment issues)

So, will you be my favourite pass time? But this time forever.
Will you teach me how to value love, so that I won’t have to write cheesy letters again?

And are you ready to believe me when I say, I love you?

Please be my girlfriend again,
Someone who will never let go.



Author: Alisha Jamshed Syed

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