There are other things to life than love and fake friendship.
I ask who needs fake friends? You say it’s better to have them than to be lonely! You are so obsessed with wanting to pity those who don’t abide by your unwritten but widely followed rules. Your idea of happiness emerges from human relationships.
You don’t realize that the number of people you can invite to your party doesn’t have anything to do with your personal satisfaction. They will come, comment on your hairdo, make small-talk and leave. They are not permanent but you think you have friends when really, they don’t care about you. You need people who you connect with, who you can talk to for so long that you don’t even remember what you were talking about!
You will just assume that I’m lonely and this is a rant about being lonely after a breakup.
You want to find love in everything, you romanticise the plan of the universe and destiny and fate. As if these bigger forces have no other work than to submit to human lives.
So, what if I recently had a breakup? You will just assume that I’m lonely and this is a rant about being lonely after a breakup. As I’m writing this, you’re making your mind about how I’m going to tell you that being alone is better and that I am a lonely hero. A Messiah for every broken heart, eh? Go ahead, you can romanticise anything, even me talking about solitude in a non-cliched way. I am just annoyed at you because this is not me glorifying being alone and happy.
I am just trying to say that you want to think I’m alone even when I don’t think so.
Sure, I am alone in the sense that I don’t talk to the person I love, every day. I am alone in a sense that all my friends are working on their own careers and we get to meet only once in a while. I am alone in the sense that I take time to make friends and more than that, I take time to maintain the ones I make. But it doesn’t mean that I am sad and lonely is the actual truth. I am just trying to say that you want to think I’m alone even when I don’t think so. You can be sad and depressed after a breakup. Mine just happened to be a mutual decision that doesn’t hurt me anymore. I missed my partner for a while but I got over the initial loneliness.
I get it, heartbreaks are sad but depression and anxiety are not at all about that. Depression is when you are so sad that you feel no satisfaction even when you are hanging out with your closest friends. Sure, friends and family help you through the worse. But it takes time. When you are lonely inside, no friend or love interest can help you. It takes time to come out of it and believe in happiness again.
There is a difference between being lonely and solitude. I am not a lonely girl in need of a lover. I am capable of being independent. I just wish my friends would visit me more often and that’s it. Life is good, Y’all. And I hope you’re finding it amazing too. Let’s all be happy, it doesn’t matter if the source is your favourite sitcom, your lover, your friends, video games or music.
A happy solitary human.