And maybe that’s my fault because I told her to do so!
Do you know what’s more difficult than a long distance relationship? A long distance friendship. More so, if your bestie happens to be your soul sister. The long wait for replies to screenshots, the jealousy of possible new best friends and the anxiety of a fading bond! Too much to handle isn’t it?
I didn’t realise she was just a bird leaving her nest, not a caterpillar about to break out from its cocoon.
Growing up, I’d been the socialite to her antisocial. She mellowed out my ‘firecracker personality’ to the point where I almost, no longer blow up (because sometimes us extroverts just need to calm down!) But I think I wasn’t the most sensible person to take life advice from. I say this, with reference to our last phone call before she boarded a plane all the way to your part of the world. I was nervous for her, excited too, because this was the moment when I thought that maybe, she’d finally break out of her shell. I was throwing dos and don’ts left, right and center, overwhelming the poor soul. I didn’t realize she was just a bird leaving her nest, not a caterpillar about to break out from its cocoon.
We tend to do that with loved ones don’t we? After all, we desire nothing but the best for them, and to see them infectiously happy. We forget that they will make mistakes and learn themselves, they’ll make their own choices while nurturing their true selves along the way. Maybe that’s where I went wrong and I admit it. Hopefully, I’ll soon be able to admit this to her as well.
I planted the wrong seed but now I hope you won’t let it steal away from her original beauty.
It has only been a few days since her departure and I’m genuinely grateful to our well co-ordinated Skype routines. But I’m starting to miss my old friend a bit too much. My face fell a little when I saw her tagged in photos of events I know she can’t stand and in outfits I’m aware she hates. Yes, people do change and chances at fresh starts are amazing, but the fake smile on that pretty face said all that I needed to know. I wanted her to be happier, bolder and well-connected for the new challenges she was about to face. What I didn’t realise was that she could be all those things while being her true self too.
I planted the wrong seed but now I hope you won’t let it steal away from her original beauty. Sure she can be a major pain sometimes, but I’m trusting you, her newfound friends, to bear her tantrums in my place, to help her grow and remind her that she doesn’t need to pretend to be someone she’s not; neither for herself, nor for anyone else.
To sum this up, yes I made a mistake. But I’m still her best friend forever! I may get jealous of the amount of time you all get to spend with her but I trust her choices, that is her new friends, who I know would prove to be fabulous additions to this new life. And who knows? Someday we might become good friends too!
Someone you’ll definitely be hearing a lot more about.