Both of you bonded so well, it made me jealous.
I still remember the day I introduced both of you to each other. You greeted each other warmly. It seemed as if you were long-lost friends. I was even more surprised when numbers were exchanged on the third meet. I was your subject of conversation and I enjoyed the attention I received. Watching how you two gelled up quite easily was relieving. I wouldn’t have to juggle my time between the two of you. I always thought my girlfriend would’ve been a little awkward around my best friend and vice versa. Fortunately, for me, that was not the case.
By the fourth meet, I saw how you confided in her and she in you. Secrets were shared and I was no longer your only subject of conversation. As much as I was pleased with the progress you were making, I felt left out. Okay! Who am I kidding? To be honest, I was envious of what you shared and didn’t want to be sidelined. Insecurity crept in but slowly I grew out of it. I mean, think of it this way, I could now spend all the time in the world with my two favourite girls!
I tried to please you and almost lost her instead.
We began to spend more time together and I enjoyed every moment with both of you. The beauty of our relationship was how we never felt like either of us was ignored. She never had a problem with us spending more time with each other than with her. However, I found it a little unsettling when you wanted to be present every time she and I decided to do something together. She didn’t mind it but I missed hanging out with her because you third wheeled our outings.
Despite this, she never put forth any complaints about the same, unlike me. She always treated you with dignity and more importantly as her friend. You must know that you crossed the line when you spoke negatively of her. She had never caused us harm and yet you suddenly wanted me to keep my distance from her. Giving in to pressure, I finally told her that I cannot speak to her when you’re around. I tried to please you and almost lost her instead. It is obvious that she felt neglected and was disappointed with me. She ignored me when you were around and even in your absence. I had never felt worse about myself.
Friendships aren’t made by circumstances but by choices and I stand by the choices I’ve made.
Truly this decision split my being. It was as if I was losing an important aspect of my existence. I love you and you complete me. However, it doesn’t lessen my love and affection for her. She has always stood by me through thick and thin. We have grown together and have been each other’s pillar of strength. I need her. Anyway, I need you to know that I spoke to her the other day. I told her that I’ve been a complete jerk to her and we made peace.
It was utterly insensitive on your part to cause a rift between two childhood friends. I understand that you must have been a little insecure about her presence. Please remember, both of you hold an important place in my heart. She can never fill in your shoes and you can’t fill hers. Asking me to pick one is impossible. Friendships aren’t made by circumstances but by choices and I stand by the choices I’ve made. This is why I want you to know that come what may, she will always be my priority.
I love you and I hope you understand.
Your Boyfriend who is also her best friend.
Author: Joanne Baptista