I know you’re reading this with a huge grin on your face and pride in your heart.
It’s the year 2016 and I’m sitting in front of my computer and going crazy on the keyboard. I don’t know where or how you’re reading this letter but I’m sure you’re at peace. At the time of writing this, you had problems which seemed so heavy on your shoulders (deciding what to gift your best friend for her birthday was the heaviest. Yeah…you were pretty silly back then). But you made it through all of them and look at you now. No, literally get up and take a look at yourself in the mirror. You’re beautiful. I’m guessing you have finally let your hair grow and taken care of it. Or even if you’ve gone all out and chopped it off (in which case, you still look awesome). Your skin is glowing and you still have that spark in your eyes. You’re wearing something in which you are both, literally and figuratively comfortable and you look breathtaking. Your younger self is looking up to you in awe.
You love reading. I hope you still snuggle up in bed with a book and read until the night turns into day (does mom still shout at you for spoiling your eyes like that? No wait, did you really spoil eyes? I have to know). You loved riding bikes. I’m guessing you already have a bike parked outside your house. If not, work to buy one because I know how much you love the wind hitting your face as you speed past gawping crowds and hazy buildings.
Everything that has happened has led you to this moment and I’m sure you wouldn’t want to change a single thing.
Do you still write? I hope you haven’t given up on your favourite thing to do. A younger you loved challenging herself, brainstorming, learning and putting pen to paper. Don’t stop. Write your heart out. And then write a letter to your future self reminding her not to stop writing. Or write a letter to me, thanking me to remind you to do the one thing you loved the most. By this time I hope you’ve gone for many hikes and treks and have scars that you’re proud to show off.
Between all the things I’m saying right now and things that you’re nodding or shaking your head at, you’ve gone through a lot and there’s still more waiting for you. But you’ve grown so beautifully and learnt so much that it all seems so easy. All the people that have gone were meant to leave. Everything that has happened has led you to this moment and I’m sure you wouldn’t want to change a single thing.
Go call your friends. Catch up with them. Call mom and ask her how she’s doing. Take a break from work because I know you’ve been working crazy. And most importantly, love yourself. Because you are perfect the way you are and I cannot wait to get to you.
You or me.
Author: Zainab Haji