Some endings need not be sad. Some divorces need not be bitter.
Can you believe that we have actually reached the end of the divorce procedure? Soon, we will no longer be husband and wife. We will not share a house, a bed or a bank account. It is the end of our marriage, our companionship. The very thought of this used to terrify me to no end and I should be terrified; I should be devastated. But somehow, I am not. If I may confess, our separation and the subsequent divorce come as a bit of a relief. We were so obviously not working out.
Do you remember the day of our wedding? Everything went wrong – the flower arrangements, the seating, me tripping on the way to the altar. But none of it mattered. We were so young and hopeful; we were so determined to be happy. Not for a single minute did we believe that we would break-up someday. We actually believed that our love for each other would be enough to sustain us. A part of me wishes we could go back to that day but a bigger part of me knows that regardless of what we do, our separation was inevitable.
It was better than watching all our immense love and respect for each other turn into hatred.
How could two people with such drastically different opinions make a marriage work? Neither did our priorities ever match. We had begun arguing about every little thing towards the end. You drove me absolutely crazy and I am sure I did too. Our unhappy marriage was not about you being a bad husband or me being a bad wife. We were two people so in love who just weren’t compatible. I am so proud of us that we decided to end things on amicable terms. It was better than watching all our immense love and respect for each other turn into hatred.
You were right; my mom never liked you. She expects me to be enraged. She is so confused about my lack of tears and wailing. She believes with all her heart that you had an illicit love affair that broke my heart. According to her, I am just being strong. I laugh at her every time. The thing is I don’t hate you, not even a little. You were great when we got married and you were just as great when we filed our divorce papers. Perhaps this is the ‘conscious uncoupling’ that Chris Martin and Gwyneth Paltrow talked about. It is definitely better than the numerous fights in the family court for alimony, custody and child support. I didn’t even get to file a restraining order against you. It’s so disappointing.
You were such an important part of my life and I am going to cherish every moment that we spent together.
Jokes apart, despite knowing that the dissolution of our marriage is the right decision for us, I am going to miss you so much. You were such an important part of my life and I am going to cherish every moment that we spent together. I am happy though; now no one will use up all of my expensive shampoo at one go (What did you even do with it?). We’ll be happier now.
We had some pretty good times, didn’t we? Our marriage did have some good bits but now, it is time to let go. I wish you all the happiness and all the love in the world. I hope you will find someone who will never let go of your hand and who will love you for the wonderful man that you are. Please continue blinding people with that heart-warming smile of yours.
Remember that I’ll always be there for you. Our marriage might have ended but our friendship remains intact. Today, I love you more than ever.