We both had thought we were meant for each other. Funny, right?
I still remember our first date like it happened an hour ago. You had worn a shirt and proper shoes. Seeing you like that was a welcome change from your faded t-shirts and slippers. We ate and talked and laughed. All in all, it was a date I had always dreamed of having.
Like they say, I fell in love with you the way you fall asleep, slowly and then all at once.
That day, we knew we loved each other. Or at least, I did! But I didn’t say it to you. I didn’t feel the need to because I felt it. I felt it in the way you looked at me. In the way you found excuses to somehow touch my hand. In the way you smiled and looked away every time I glanced at you. Like they say, I fell in love with you the way you fall asleep, slowly and then all at once.
From that day till today, what happened? How did we reach here? How did we drift so far away? Actually I think it’s my fault. I had hoped for too much. After all, you hadn’t said you loved me. You never said you even liked me. I just assumed too much.
It still kills me that you were almost mine.
Even then, it kills me to see your pictures with another girl on social media. How adoringly you smile in them. The same smile that I had fallen for! It still kills me that I judge every other date by the one we had enjoyed. It still kills me that I look for a little of you in every guy I meet. It still kills me that you were almost mine.
But I’d be lying if I said I wouldn’t want to live that night just once again. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t wish for you to think about me sometimes. I’d be lying if I said I didn’t hope for a parallel universe where you and I weren’t so far apart, where you and I were one!
Someone You Almost Loved!
Author: Zainab Haji